time has a way; of taking back everything you thought you had.

2010-09-24T16:36:00.003+08:00

Hehe I've gotta post my long overdue holiday photos next week as promised!!

I passed my Ftt!! :D hehe happy girl! Got 49/50 haha I owned Phillip again! He got 46/50 last time :p but the qns were alot more manageable than entrails which I failed :( so now I'm on the train towarda boonlay to surprise Phillip! :D he always treat me to nice food whenever I have interviews/impt events/tests/exams so today i'll treat him to nice dinner!! :D happy anniversary love! ;)

I reckon my eyesight is en route to deterioration! It feels so dry and tired after staring at the iPhone since I boarded the train at kembangan! Alas, the downside of technology and novelty!

I'm starving as I blogged an I'm urgently in need of a washroom too!

Raining heavily out there.. Wished I'm home all cuddled up in my smelly but comfy covers :p

Kay next stop and I'll be off the train!

To side track a little, this prc woman stepped on my flip flops because she wNted to squeeze past me which I absolutely refused to allow. Stupid woman, do you not know what's the meaning of queuing up????? Gosh hate ppl like her. You won't die if you don't get a seat!

Laters! Craving for koi!!!

2010-09-24T00:31:00.002+08:00

First time blogging using my iPhone! In case you haven realized, I got my iphone4 as an early birthday present from Phillip! :) thanks baby :) reason being I've been procastinating for the longest time ever, just nice my contract's up and he's having exams during my birthday period! Hehe I decided on the iPhone despite wanting a blackberry initially (even tho I'm a fan of apple's products! I owned a iPod mini and MacBook! Tho they are ancient alr!) iPhone because I want to surf the net whilst on the go and unfortunately blackberry has too small a screen for the purpose. So iPhone it is!

We went on Sunday to get it but to my dismay, they are out of stocks!!! So Phillip asked me to go tmr in the morning when they open. I got there at 11 but it's sold out!!! Was kinda annoyed. I got up earlier specially to get the phone but its not available! -.- the girl who was serving me must have noticed my disappointment, simply dismissed me by asking me to queue and direct the qns to her colleagues -.- I didn't say anything because I know it'll probably turn ugly. So I queued and whined hahaha yes i did that to the guy! So he double checked for me after saying my 16 gb is oos! Alas, he found the very last slip of paper that says 16 gb!!! Hehe I was soooooo happy! I mean I saw him running through the many slips of paper that says 32 gb and I was already prepared that I had to come back another time! Took me an hour odd more waiting for my turn!

I wanted the white iPhone but it's not gonna be released till end of year if optimistic and p was saying no point since I'll be getting pink casing and all which I thought made sense!

My iphone's named after the buyer - Phillip! Lol he requested okay! He said it's only appropriate that my iPhone be named after him. Lol ph well, if it makes him happy :p

My Ftt is tmr and I'm almost done (I think) but I failed my etrials like I always do. Sigh please let me pass my Ftt like I did 2 years ago! :) Anniversary luck pls! Yes today's our 15 months! Feels longer though.. Hehe :)

Watched Letters to Juliet this afternoon and l was moved to tears. It's about true love; how you should seize the moment and never having to look back and say 'what ifs' my kind of movie which p would prolly not get it haha :p

Lisi came back from hokkaido and brought us a box of chocolates each plus I have extra gifts!! Heh :) thanks bestie!

And true to his words, the initial plan was to go hongkong this dec/jan but now we might be going Tokyo! Nothing's confirmed yet after all I'm still unemployed and broke! Gonna chummy my driving after I pass my Ftt! Please let me pass!!! *fingers crossed*

Kay I'm gonna get back to my book because my arms are aching from using iPhone to blog!

See ya all soon to those who still bother checking my blog once a while!

I'm not gonna say life's been good because i think it's a jinx to say so. Never fail to have my world crashing down on me the very next moment those 3 words are uttered.

Note to self- Phuket photos aren't even halfway up! And the Melbourne pics! Better prove p wrong and upload asap! I promise to upload next week if I pass my Ftt :D

2010-09-17T14:49:00.003+08:00

I'M OFFICIALLY LEARNING DRIVING!! as of 11 sept 2010.

LOL!

my dearest phillip chor found me a FEMALE instructor! WHY? hahahaha cos he says male instructors will have xian zhu shou! LOL TTM.

haha i'm heading out for my THIRD lesson now! :)

Melbourne - Day 1 17 Aug 2010

2010-09-06T16:46:00.003+08:00

since i'm free now (sitting at Mac, waiting for p to finish class) i'll be continuing the updates for Melbourne!

as mentioned in my previous entry, got there aout 8 and George was already there to pick us up! He drove us back to his place, which seemed like AGES (but Brighton is actually not that far from Melbourne aiport). guessed it must be that we just got off a flight of 7hours odd. his cousin drives a LEXUS! BLACK LEXUS! I LIKE VERY MUCH! :D but his driving is kinda scary. to the extent that i'm actually afraid of him driving us to Mornington Peninsula for a double date! (Note to self. visit Mornington Peninsula the next time when i'm in Melb!)

Prior the trip, I've never heard of Brighton. Turns out that Brighton is near St Kilda, and Chapel Street! was kinda wistful that we won't be staying in the heart of the city BUT i was sold when i realised that Brighton is a quaint little town, just like those you see in Desperate Housewives! :D

Their house is open-concept; no walls unless necessary. that is to say, only walls when there's a bedroom. we slept in the lounge, had air beds (which p had to pump! ;p) was really skeptical about sleeping on air beds but it was actually quite fun!! HAHA. wrote to P's mummy and she said she would love to try too. only thing is, the air bed makes ALOT OF NOISE if you do toss and turn in bed! LOL.

whilst P pumped the air beds, i went to take my shower and when we're both done, we took a nap! got up around 3pm! before heading out to Chapel Street!! First stop of our Melbourne adventure! :D excited!!

P's aunty, Aunty Helen, brought us to the train station - Gardenvale. it was quite a bit of a walk to the train station though. 10 minutes! LOL. ws telling p that 10 mins in sg, i could have walked from my place to tampines MRT station. for once, i'm thankful that sg is land-scarce and not as huge as aussie! the weather is soooo chilly but i'm still super gung-ho on day one! LOL. wore 3 thin layers and i went out to the streets! (P had to wear 5layers + bubble jacket! HAHAHA!) but day 2 onwards, i can't take it anymore... boooo. HAHA.

2010-08-30T01:05:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since the hiatus. 2 months and i went 3 countries. what more can i ask for. time to get my feet firmly on the ground and start looking for a job! goodbye holidays! =( will see you in dec if time/money permits! i promise ;)

i should start blogging proper on my aussie trip before it fades into oblivion like my taiwan trip =(
(photos for phuket aren't even half finished!)

we went to MELBOURNE on 16th Aug 2010. it was a short 8 days trip because of my damned wisdom tooth op =(

let me sidetrack abit, PEOPLESEARCH is ridiculous really. they called phillip up offering him a job at the natas fair, and after confirming everything, when phillip came back from the hols, he called and asked, and guess what. the job is no longer avail. so fking pissed off. we couldn't extend our trip becos he felt responsible for the job. FK. we could easily have extended our trip by 3-4 days. so frigging pissed off really. arghhhh. =( i hate PEOPLESEARCH bigtime!

PREPARATIONS FOR THE TRIP
it was a last minute decision to go ahead with melbourne. was toying with the idea for the longest time but never thought it would actually be feasible given countless hiccups we had. we booked the tix on a wed/thurs for a flight out on a monday! very bold of us, considering i have no boots/proper winter wear. =( technically speaking, i do have them. BUT as you know, i used to weigh alot more so the winter wear is simply wayyy too oversized on me. no way am i gonna wear that! i wanna look pretty even though it's winter! ;p luckily phillip has 3 sisters! hahaha. borrowed a bubble jacket from angel (p's 2nd sister) and a knitted outerwear. got my boots at FEP for 15bucks! what a steal right!! =D love the boots to bits!! phillip is a very efficient shopper when it comes to shopping for others.LOL. we found the boots within an hour!! i have 2 sets of gloves and beanies. so i packed both sets into my luggage (one for p, one for him!) he stubbornly said he need not the gloves, beanie & bubble jacket. but he was thankful i MADE him pack into his luggage. lol. MELBOURNE FROZE OUR ASSES! :D sorry for the crude language. but it really was that cold!!!

i was busy like a bee as i googled everything that could be useful for melbourne. lol. ended up compiling a file so thick that we didn't have even slots for the notes! lol. of course phillip did his part (albeit minimal ;p) in researching. haha he knows that's nothing to worry about because his ganchiong girlf would ensure everything is prepared!! :D

DAY OF DEPARTURE
EXCITEDDDDD!!! we took emirates! first time on emirates. excited!! :D finally no need jetstar!!! ;p departed on the night of 16th, (1030pm flight) and daddy drove us there. we got there at about 8 in the morning aussie time. (7 hours flight, aussie is 2 hours ahead sg time) our luggages (put together) weigh slightly below 30kg! didn't sleep much on the plane, maybe less than an hour whilst p slept most of the time. meal onboard was alright, a little below my expectations given that its emirates! watched The Last Song (Miley Cyrus) onboard. i love nicholas sparks' stories! flight was pretty empty, so i slept on phillip's lap. sorry baby! heh i was barely into sleep and tadah, time for breakfast -.- grumpy!!

i had a full body search whilst phillip had to remove his belt, outer jacket, hp, blahhhh. -.-

when we came out of the gates, phillip's cousin, george, was already there waiting for us! ;D thanks george! he's really hospitable!

TAIWAN TRIP ( 8 - 17 June 2010 ) - Liqing, Poh Li Si & Natalie Goh Cai Wen!

2010-07-22T11:34:00.005+08:00

i had to refer to my blog to remember when was the last time i actually blogged, and boy, it was SO long ago! the last entry was dated 19 June 2010, two day afters my return from taiwan grad trip with the girls!

(this is an attempt to try blogging again! so what should i start?)

this trip certainly brought us all closer, and sorta got me and lisi talking again. taiwan was one country i didn't expect to visit, not when i'm always trying to be so angmoh-ish. HAHA. anyway, in retrospect, i'm really glad i made this trip! else god knows how much fun i would have missed out on!

photos are ALL up on facebook! ( I DID QC OKAY!! haha! )

i truly enjoyed my stay in kaoshiung and kenting, can't quite speak the same for taipei. WHY IS THAT SO! i seriously dont quite get it, since taipei is the capital of taiwan! it is also the highly raved must-visit city! but it turned out to be quite a disappointment, the streets were dirty, messy and run-down. totally not cool. :(

kaoshiung - 4 days!
our hotel is the most awesome one we stayed!! :D credits to nat for finding it! it's so BIG and SPACIOUS and WORTH THE MONEY!!!!! it's not even expensive! :DD too big we didnt cherish it until we went to kenting/taipei. LOL TTM!

(I CAN'T RMBR THE EXACT NAMES FOR PLACES COS THEY ARE IN CHINESE! will come back to this again!)

kenting - 2 days!
(easier to blog about this part!)

we took a cab from our hotel in kaoshiung down to kenting! 2 hours ride. and we almost died!!! rah. the driver drove at 120km/h when it was RAINING CATS & DOGS! the car skidded so many times that we were really all freaked out. diferent ways of handling this too. lq couldn't bear to sleep cos she's worried and she's the front passenger! nat, lisi and myself, slept because we couldn't bear to watch. it was a long, long ride... F

FINALLY we got to kenting! but i was half-dead already. :(( was a dampen because it kept raining :( and we only had 2 days there! we stayed at this MIN SHU which has no elevator!! gosh, and my luggage is like SUPER DUPER HEAVY! we can't even check in when we were there, so we gotta wait at the 'so-called' lobby. :(( not a good start for our adventure in kenting! so we walked out to the streets to look for FOOOOOD! it was really quite hilarious thinking back now, four of us, four umbrellas, walking in the rain. really quite a sight.

the rain subsided in the afternoon and we went for WATER SPORTS!!!!!! 500 NT per person for about 2 hours! works out to be about 25sgd for 2hours. it was quite exhilarating to say the least. snorkeling, speed boat, banana boat, duck web and our 'instructor' gave us free jetski cos we're not locals! :D the water sports are damn fun!!!! <3 haha mad love. (pity i didnt do any in phuket with my diver boyf! rah!) we took a shower in those container toilets and it STINKS ttm! we applied our snorkeling skills - not breathing through your nose!! lol. very embarrassing but fun!! <3 hahah

day two:

BACK FROM TAIWAN

2010-06-19T18:49:00.002+08:00

flight's delayed for more than an hour. supposed to take off at 710pm, due to problems with ground landing, we took off only at 835pm. got back to singapore at 1245.

phillip came to pick me up, he didn't want to trouble my dad. plus my dad sprained his ankle whilst i was away. :( thankfully he's okay now! went to 85 to eat bachormee! craving.

i'm bloggin whilst waiting for phillip to join us for family dinner tonight!

2010-06-08T01:49:00.003+08:00

all packed, ready to go.

only thing... we just had an argument. :( i really hate it when the cause of our argument is always so trival, yet it never fails to escalate.. happens specially when we're both tired.. particularly when he's the super tired one. :((

told him i dont want to see him tmr before i leave. that must have hurt quite abit. he insists he's still gonna send me regardless what i say..

rah. its just so annoying that im leavin tmr, and we just have to argue tonight!!!!!!

:(((((

i should probably get some sleep soon.

and i cant find my suntan lotion.

no handcarry tmr, gonna chuck it all in my suitcase. its quite packed already! RAH gonna sieve out unnecessary items tmr morn!!!

i'm gonna miss cookie!!!

oh, something to be happy about, i woke u from a nightmare this morning, and at the very precise moment, i heard my door knob turned...... and there's the man in red standing at the door.. couldn't make out who he was (though i have an idea who!) hah cos i cant see without spects! yes yes, he's phillip!!!!! :D his tuition got canceled, and he came to surprise me! mad love when he does little things like this. :)

finally...

2010-06-07T02:03:00.002+08:00

i get to blog!

baby's asleep, and cookie's chased out of my room. he pee on my bed TWICE within TEN minutes! got me so mad! :(( so he's not sleepin in my room tonight!

phillip's finally back and my exams are OFFICIALLY OVER.

let me talk about my exams first, it was AGONY having exams this year.. it's like the fear of failure and disappointment seemed to have enveloped me, that i got reallyyyy nervy. :(

marketing - quite disappointed, studied REALLY hard for it. topics that i was good at didn't appear at all. :( and i attempted 2 or 3 questions which had 3 parts to it. ie, not enough time. (had to do 4 25m qns in 3hours!)

otia - studied 5 topics, (out of 12!) felt i had more to write, couldn't finish.

esap - has to be the best paper so far. downside- i HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO WRITE TOO!!!

i really need to get at least B for all the above 3 papers. else i'm SCREWED.

monec - killer paper. i was never good with maths, but i practiced so damn hard for this paper. turned out that the qns had really odd algebra and stuff, couldn't do AT ALL. 30marks GONE. thought section A was easy, but i fking made a stupid mistake. like, 1.5*1000 = 1800. WTF. section B was tough, seriously tough. i have no idea if i can ever pass the paper. really. :( that's how bad it was. and i cried after the paper. because it didn't seemed like my hard work is gonna get paid off. :((((((

phillip left a day after my 1st paper, and came back a day before my last paper. he's really great, he sent me to expo/orchard for my exams and waited 3hours specially for me. because he knew how much of a nervewreck i was. initially it was hard not havin him around, especially when i'm all stressed up and freaked out, but i eventually got used to it and became much stronger. :) went to pick him up on the 1st, (he wasn't expecting me!) hah and i saw SUN XIE ZHI instead.

after my last paper, we went VIVOCITY for our long-awaited date! ;p it was merely dinner but i enjoyed his company tremendously. :)) went to asian kitchen for all-time favourite xiao long bao! ;) met his 3 sisters after that for SEX AND THE CITY 2. it was BORING. period. hah, phillip fell asleep. i was actually SO BORED!!!! his eldest sister treated us to the movie, thanks chris! :)) baby lent me his blanket cos cookie pee on mine!

thurs/fri - running errands with me. :) we took bus!! its been so long, and i missed taking bus rides with phillip. :)) nightmare on elm street on thursday and he stayed over! :)

sat - the silly boy had diarrhoea on his last two days at cambodia but he didn't wanna see a doctor, in the end, he felt so lousy and he thought he had sore throat, so he went to the doctor on sat morn 8.30! reached there, was told doc will come in only at 930! he almost fainted, thankfully i woke up, saw his text and called him to accompany him! :D then we had a minor argument. rah. but i still got him dinner before heading to his place. his eldest sis was around to get the gate for me! lucky me! talked to his sis for about an hour before headin up to his room, he slept so soundly and he didn't realise i was there. had dinner tgt, then his sisters all went out, so we sat around abit watched some tv, and decided to watch a movie!

supposed to meet lq, so i asked if she wanted to watch movie! KILLERS! cathay, cine, amk, ehub, gv tamp, gv ps - ALL SOLD OUT/LEFT FIRST ROW. -.- lq had to queue and asked the person to check and the person got kinda pissed off, so phillip checked online and we decided on... MARMADUKE! :)

marmaduke is hilarious and heart-warming! i really enjoyed the movie!! so did phillip!! went for taohuay before heading home! stayed over with phillip.. cos sun we gotta bring cookie to groomin anyway! i love stayovers.

sun - baby woke up at 10 to go give tuition whilst i continued sleeping. haha, told him i want to see him back the next time my eyes are open, and true enough, haha, he's back when i woke up! :DD then he went back to sleep whilst i go wash up and all.

went home pick my sister and cookie then we head for bedok south - alphapets for grooming. 25bucks for basic grooming, not bad a deal. left cookie there whilst we went bedok85 for lunch. then drove to parkway to get my currency changed, and of course, we got KOI! haha parkway has nicer koi than AMK! phillip is super cute, he's afraid i'll get robbed so he insisted he parked his car and accompany me down!

went back for cookie after 2 hours, was quite happy even though cookie looked abit scared. thought it was normal since cookie has NEVER been away from us.. BUT when i got him on the car, i looked at his belly and i see 3 RED OPEN WOUNDS on him! i got so pissed off. rah. and lost actually. cos its my first groomin trip, so i asked p if it's normal, he said no. so we got back to the shop and asked. rah. phillip being mr nice guy as always, was all calm and composed. whilst i was alittle upset. cos cookie was trembling the entire time when i brought him back to the shop. what got me really annoyed was that the guy who did the grooming said it wasn't his fault, that he couldn't have hurt him. that maybe i haven't noticed the wound all along, since it was under his fur. i was like, hello, excuse me, the wounds are NO WHERE near the fur so it couldn't have been the case. :(( cookie was fine when he went there, came back all shaken and injured. :( phillip let the matter go, and the other girl said to call her if anything's wrong etc. RAH. i shall be nice and let it go too. dont want a second trip back there.

rah. after that we went to get my eyebrows trimmed. HAHA. phillip's jealous! he said 'sweetheart, are you goin taiwan to shop or flirt?!?!' hahahahahaha :DDD

dinner, then we went to watch KILLERS! it was all sold out when we got there, thankfully we had gotten the tickets on sat! the movie's seriously OVERRATED. it fell short of expectations, of what the trailer seemed to promise.

alright i needa go! its 2.30 and i needa pack my stuff and SLEEP! needa head to the clinic tmr to make appointment for my wisdom tooth. its hurtin me. shit. gotta get painkillers too!

2010-05-27T14:53:00.003+08:00

aim today = finish chp 1-4 + chp 9!!!!!

i have 14 chps in all! :( sigh.

and it so mathematical..can't stand it. baby should take this paper for me! haha

cookie's been sleepin on my bed for the past couple of days!

PHILLIP CHOR! get back soon before your position gets DISPLACED. ;p

JIAYOU JIAYOU!!

2010-05-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

ESAP's OVER!!!!!! one last paper to go!!! exactly a week from now. quite worried. cos i havent revised econs since MARCH! and it's may already!!! :(((

please please please let my hard work pay off!!!!!

taking a break tonight, i havent been sleepin well since 12th may!!!! can't wait for 530pm on 2nd june!!!!!!!

oh, phillip went to the village on tuesday morning to build homes, and there's no wi-fi!! so i'll only get to talk to him when he gets back! so much to say!! ;p gonna head to the airport to pick him up! :DD

lq's the sweetest friend ever!!!!!
she came by specially on monday just to drop off her presents from korea! <3 <3 <3 woman, i know you'll be reading this!! hah thanks so much and really appreciate it! :D i want to be (i know i will be!) your bridesmaid in future! heh me and lisi!!!! haha can't wait for taiwan trip!!!!!!! we'll meetup on 3rd/4th to plan for our trip alright!!! so excited!! :DD

2010-05-22T02:56:00.002+08:00

happiness!! :DD

went offline cos baby said no internet connection again :(( and sms cost 1sgd per text, call cost 3sgd per min. :((

then when i was about to study GROUPS, i got missed calls!!!!!!!!!!!!

one missed call = going to bed

two missed calls = skype!!

i switched on my laptop the moment i got one missed call! :p and then it kept coming in, till i got 7!!!

and i finally saw 'phillip came online' on skype!!!!!!

:DDDDDDDDD

happiness can be so simple. :)

more motivated to study nw;p

2010-05-21T22:30:00.001+08:00

FINALLY GOT TO HEAR HIS VOICE! :)))

mad happy.

we skyped for an hour odd!! :DDD

and by day four, i already have FIVE presents! <3

kay now i have to keep my word and study!!! :)

2010-05-21T14:03:00.003+08:00

sad. :( i didnt get to talk to phillip every since TUESDAY! which means his first day there. internet connection was not working, electricity got cut off = no internet + no aircon for him. :(( so sad okay! :((

here i am trying my best-est to study, and when i thought i could finally rewind and enjoy catchin up with my baby at night, i get so disappointed. :((

at least he's doing well there! :) just that he's so tanned/charred now that i might not want him when he's back!!! ;p

havin my period now! (came yesterday!) so it certainly didn't help in dissipating the gloom in me. oh well, after a good night's sleep, all is well again!

i'll still be waiting for him :) else we'll just use email for the timebeing.

alright back to studies. TIME IS RUNNING OUT!!!!!!!

ps. my cousin's wedding this weekend in muar! :( i cant go back. sigh. this sucks to the max. and nobody's gonna be home tonight, leaving me all with cookie. mummy told me to order pizza for myself. :( eating pizza alone is NO FUN!

p.ps. cookie is not eating his food!! :( mummy bought a 15kg pack and he's not eating it AT ALL. this is really bad. gonna give him two more days to get adjusted back to this brand again! :) wholesome, holistic doggie food!!

RAINBOW AFTER THE STORM! :)

2010-05-20T01:27:00.002+08:00

OTIA'S OVER!!!

i seriously have no idea what to feel. super happy that its FINALLY OVER. i thought i can do the qnses, BUT BUT BUT, i didn't finish ALL four qns! in the sense, for all i've gotta compare economists vs sociologists view, but i didnt manage to finish sociologists view for ALL four qns!!!! :( wrote partially and in a hurry. :((

really bad time management.

pls pls pls let me at least have a B.

else there goes my second upper. which goes to say i have to settle for second LOWER. :(((

but i've tried my best. really.

gave cookie his shower (FINALLY!) brought him down for a walk.. cookie's feeling ill since my sister's birthday bbq on saturday! daddy brought him to the vet, but the vet simply gave vitamins. and cookie's is shedding ALOT of fur! i dont know if its normal but im seriously worried! and he's got a BALD patch on his forehead (just above his eyes!) i wonder what is wonder. is it the food?? :(((( sigh. i wished i had gone to the vet together, but i had exams. :((((

poor little cookie boy. he's only coming half year and he's already balding. :(((((

had a half hour chat over skype with phillip yesterday night. his first day in cambodia and he already bought me prez! :D waitin for him to come online now whilst i blog to kill time... please let him come home safely! :) i can do without the prez; i really just want him to be safe.

first time we're not gonna spend our anniversary (11th!) together.. but doesn't matter! :) we have a lifetime to go! :)

ps. getting excited for my taiwan trip!!!!!!!!

no news/updates about my aussie trip though. :((( I STILL DO WANT TO GO BADLY.

2010-05-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

disappointment.

i studied so damn hard for my marketing!!!!! then i think i screwed up today. paper was tough, qnses indirect. i answered the wrong qns! ran out of time.

hate 3 parts question. ARGH! i attempted 2 three-part qnses, and halfway thru the qns, i realised im dead. NOT ENOUGH TIME.

there goes my A. i seriously have no confidence even getting a B.

:((((

OTIA the day after tomorrow.

phillip's flying off soon. so it's just me against the exams. :((

2010-05-11T01:33:00.003+08:00

im dying sooon!!! rah.

late nights mugging. taking hours to finish ONE chapter.

the only complaint about my exam timetable is that OTIA (19th!!) comes after MARKETING (17th!!) and both are THEORY PAPERS!!

faints.

I WANT TO DIE.

my boyf is enjoying himself watching POKER KING whilst im stuck here MUGGING!! rah.

anyway, had KOI yesterday. NOT THAT FANTASTIC. seriously. wonder what's the hype all about.

2010-05-03T16:37:00.002+08:00

alamak! :( yesterday joan called to help me keep vouchers but i was busy watching soccer and didnt notice my phone! :(( then i called today and john said all the vouchers returned to the office!!!! :(( rahhhhh.

means i have to check and make my way down to THE OFFICE! :( which is super hard to find!!!!!! faints* just for 30bucks!

at least i can buy alcohol without paying with my money!!

2010-05-02T18:05:00.002+08:00

MY BABY IS COMING IN AN HOUR!!!! :DDDD

excited. soccer tonight! chelsea vs liverpool!!!!

okay, gotta go. bathe cookie!

2010-04-28T16:47:00.001+08:00

in phillip's hall waiting for him to finish his marketing!

rah. econs is driving me NUTS! :( so technical, so mathematical! :(((( I HATE MATHS!!!!

had waffle for lunch, and its raining out there. want to switch on the aircon.. but i can't find the card!

gonna study marketing chp 9 after this!!!!!!

(ps, i started from chp8! -.-)

2010-04-27T14:43:00.002+08:00

-.- so it's 8th to 17th! i kept thinking to 15th!!!

sotong to the max.

miss i'll miss portugal's opening match against ivory coast. (##@$*(#$(* =(((((( sigh. hope i can watch in the hotel or somewhere. :(((

my sister is super duper adorable!!!! she's observin cookie's every movement. so when she saw that he's pooping on the papers one moment, and the next moment he's out, she ran to carry him to the back! haha

<3

and i really put on weight!!!!!!!!! :( not from the haagendazs but from eating RICE every meal. :( this is bad. mummy's not home so my sis and i HAVE to eat takeaways EVERYDAY. :((((( can't wait for her to stay home and nt be busy at my bro's shop.

and..... I WILL BE SEEING MY BOYF TMR NIGHT!!!!!! :)))

plus.......

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hehe! :)) can't wait!!!!

2010-04-26T16:48:00.003+08:00

baby's sleeping; had his second paper today! poor boy. two papers on wednesday! :((

cookie's so naughty! rah gonna lock him up!!

studying marketing now!! so tired too. had morn class. sigh. 3 more days of classes and i'll be done!

2010-04-25T16:02:00.005+08:00

studyin marketing - chapter 5! Organisation & Buyer Behaviour!! so dry. :(

baby's back in hall, has a paper first thing tmr morning.

made him go home earlier yesterday to sleep...

and... fingers crossed that he won't receive 'IT'. rah.

bathed cookie just now, and cookie's been misbehaving!! cannot praise him, the moment i did, he pee/poop everywhere BUT his 'toilet' *angry* maybe he's acting out of character cos he's not feeling too good.. hopefully he gets back to his best behaviour!!

baby thinks because cookie has familarized himself around, so he's becoming naughty! :((

feeling quite restless :( stomach hurts. period.

let's fall in love again. :))

by jason castro!

i love my babyboy!!!!

2010-04-24T15:55:00.011+08:00

Happy 10 months, phillip! :)

not gonna be having any elaborate dinner for our 10th, studies first! esp when he has so many papers next week! watched THE BOUNTY HUNTER yesterday. super hilarious movie. two very beautiful actors- gerard butler & jennifer aniston. will recommend the show for fans of the two actors, and for ppl looking for laughs. will too recommend to ppl who's in a relationship that seems to be fizzling out. take some pointers from the movie, put aside your grudges and of course, your ego that is always in the way of your relationship. then maybe you can rediscover the magic; why you fell in love for the person in the first place. not that we needed it yet, but i'll keep this movie in mind.

so here's to the most amazing man i've met, i'll love you till the end of time.

yays. haagendaz later.

(sorry for typing this so low but i didn't want it to spoil the entry above.)

ps. the irony. fancy someone who's horizontally-challenged advising/commenting that ppl should hit the gym. speak for himself.

2010-04-23T18:41:00.007+08:00

cookie vomited this morning!!!!! :((((

don't know what's the cause of it.. gonna observe him awhile, if he doesn't get better, will bring him to the vet. :(( poor cookie.

went swensens with my sister.. the two of us.. like pigs! one main course each, and 2 sides! supposed to have ice-cream too but we can't even finish our food so we decided against it! mummy gave us 70bucks to spend, and we spent it all! rah. she's gonna kill us!

so after that, we went popular to get stationeries and then to pet station.. bought him dog bones and toothpaste!! wait till hes better, will get him more treates!

then we finally went ntuc for groceries. phillip wanted to send me to do groceries later, so i dont have to carry so much and take bus.. (awwww.) but i told him it's okay, that we can manage! :D

BOUGHT 4 pints of HAAGEN-DAZS ICECREAM!!!!!

damn cheap okay! originally 14.50/pint, but she charged me 10.90/pint. so instead of 3pints for 43+, i got 4pints!!! :DDDDD

strawberry for mummy, strawberry cheesecake for me, belgium chocolate for sam and macademia nut!

baby just called. asked if we needed dinner. we're going for our date later!!! :)

tmr's our 10th month!

just brushed cookie's teeth. and he's playing with his dog bone now.

2010-04-22T14:46:00.002+08:00

i had diarrhoea last night. rah. couldn't sleep till 3plus :(

so i woke up later than usual and i dont know if baby saw my text before he switched off his phone!!! :(( hope he did!

die die must finish prejudice today and start marketing!!!!!!!!
*screams*

2010-04-22T00:49:00.003+08:00

omg. i'm still on PREJUDICE AND DISCRIMINATION!!!!!!!!
so many days already!! :((( sigh. not focusing!

panic panic panic!!!

24 more days!!!!!

baby's having his first paper tmr!!!! hope i dont fail him tmr! *i'm his lucky girl since... way before we got together!* he deserves his good grades!!!! pls don't let his nerves get the better of him!!!!!

2010-04-21T15:46:00.009+08:00

:( so disheartening. :( i was so worked up when i first heard it!!!!!!

nono, this isn't my personal experience.

i feel like slapping the person left, right, upside down. rah. and i'm POSITIVE everyone will agree with me.

i have issues with people who LIE. i admit, i judge white lies on a case-by-case situation. still, LYING IS WRONG!!!!!!!!!!! no matter whom the person at the receiving end!!!

on another note, phillipchor is diggin out my past now! -.- haha super happy though. all the times he pretended not to be affected by other guys, now i know he cares and is jealous!!!! I LIKE. :D

just saw the pizzahut adverts and i remembered i wanted to blog about the new crunchy pizza!!
i LOVE cornflakes, but i didnt quite like the combi of cornflakes on the crust, but i LOVE LOVE LOVE the cheese in the crust!!!!! :D and i like the cheese dip! :) bought that day when phillip came over. and garlic bread! LOVE!! together with pepsi!

i'm waitin for sam to come home now!!!! DINNER!!!

and yes, i'm gonna sell my stuff off at some flea after exams!! think will be fun!!!! :D

after playing, he's back to sleep! super cute! took this even cuter photo with my phone!! upload soon!!!

2010-04-20T14:14:00.003+08:00

last day of work!

mixed emotions. feel like happy that i can finally NOT work, but at the same time, i think i'll kinda miss dfs. afterall, it's been TWO YEARS. and that's where i met many friends, got closer with my bff, and of course, met phillip. :) so it's really an integral part of my life.

maybe i'll go back and work in june for a month or so till i get my FT job! :)

we'll see how things go. i'm just gonna miss some people from work! :((

baby got cookie's food for me on sunday! we're gonna go on a date to petfarm after exams!! i think he loves cookie too, just that he's too man to admit. haha ;p cookie's getting alot better nowadays! doesn't scratch as much, pee/poop everywhere. though sometimes he will miscue/rebel and pee in the kitchen, most of the time he will head to the balcony to pee/poop! :DDD and... he knows how to sit down when i ask him to! haha ;p yay!

my cousin dropped by after school yesterday to look for cookie!

speakin of which, i was DRENCHED at the bus stop last evening whilst waitin for bus to the airport. OMG. DRENCHED. rahhh. felt so annoyed and lost at the same time, so i called phillip. :(( sigh. super unlucky or what. super uncomfy at work yesterday!

omg i'm freakin brokeeeee. i withdrew almost ALL my money from my bank!! prevent myself from online shopping impulses!! I STILL WANT AUSTRALIA! :D

work yesterday was quite boring, cos i was workin with MANY newcomers. :( thankfully there's DONSON!!! haha :D and suyee!! :)

2010-04-19T12:53:00.002+08:00

tsk.

woke at at 12! cos phillip called. cos i sent him a reply that doesnt make sense and he got worried. ;p feels so nice waking up to his voice. :D

he picked me up from work yesterday, and we went joochiat for yongtauhu and wanton mee! photos up when i upload from my phone.

i'll not let his friends affect me adversely; if our relationship is to fail, it would be our choice and decision, not theirs. :)

sufficient to know that he's always on my side.

yesterday was the last time working with mae and pris! so much fun! we pinky-hooked that we'll meet up after mae's exams in mid june!!

alright. studying pride and prejudice NOW!!

2010-04-17T18:48:00.003+08:00

kinda disheartened.

his friends are so pretentious and i cant stand them. really. just fuck off from my life lah. seriously.

raining now! and i'm super hungry. had mac bfast this morning and that's it. wanted to order pizza hut and guess what.

THEY ARE UNAVAILABLE TO DELIVER TO MY HOUSE BECAUSE THEY ARE EXPERIENCING OVERWHELMING ORDERS.

and they asked me to pick up from the nearest store instead.

RIGHT.

730pm.

called already! finally im gonna get my pizza!!!! starving! waiting for phillip to come over with duck! ;p haha and reading the live updates on the mancity/manutd match!!!! rah. moments like this, i wished i hadn't cancel my sports subscription!!!!

i called for delivery only to have them tell me pick it up on my own. madness.

2010-04-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

i'm been mad busy! :( well, not only me! all university students right now!!!!

screams*

i have been averaging a.. 4 hours/day sleep for the entire week!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND! :(

so many revision classes, so much to study, so much notes/books/references to bring to school and i have to lug it back.. no wonder i'm only 1.6m. rah.

thankfully lisi's daddy came to pick her up, so i got a free ride home! and we were so tired we both fell asleep on the way back.

tmr's another long day! LAST of my uk revision!! 330-10pm! sians to the max okay!!!

and i've gotta wake up 6ish to help my sister french-braid her hair! of course, then i'll plop back into bed.

my boyf's doing his work now, but he knows how tired i am so he says he wants to call me and tuck me into bed before continuing his work!!!

and i'll be seeing him tmr!! YAY.

okay, time to switch off the lights and talk to my boyf!!!!

2010-04-12T22:19:00.005+08:00

my aunt text my sis and asked ' sam, wed movie lido 7pm with your sis and phillip ok? '

i thought my sis made it up! LOL.

so yes, we'll be watching .....

on wednesday!! :)

2010-04-12T13:54:00.007+08:00

and i was saying, phillip called. :))) and all is well! :D

was supposed to mug esap. but damn tired. so i did up the collage instead!

rah. we're both stubborn people! damn. what to do, i'm serious about us.

rah. i deleted my entry without realising! :(((((

2010-04-12T00:57:00.003+08:00

i hate being so hot-headed and stubborn. rah.

when i get pissed off, phillip tries to coax me, but after awhile, he loses his patience, and he gets mad too. that's when things get blown out of proportion. and that's what happened this morning and tonight. :(

we had a fight this morning (after so long) :( sigh. thought it'll be all peaceful for us. but it was not to be. so we went on to do our own stuff till dinner. phillip asked me out for dinner at THE BARK CAFE. so i was excited of course. glad that things are fine.

his first time there, my second.

dinner was average, ambience great, company perfect. :)

went to changi beach after that. we were looking at stars and suddenly things went wrong. he said smth which i reacted strongly against. and in retrospect, it was really uncalled for. so we ended up arguing again. :( damn shitty. so i threw a fit and refused to get into his car. (i can't go off cos my hp is with him!) then he finally cajoled me into the car and all is well, for awhile.

rah. if the ride home was unbearable, i don't know how to describe the situation in my room.

i hugged cookie and i cried. didnt know i cried so bad until i realised his fur is wet with my tears. so i decided to heck it and get my shower, and here i am typing this.

it was just a day filled with both pleasant and unpleasant events. and i wished we hadn't spoilt the date. which was otherwise picture perfect.

i'm blogging this down despite knowing that my blog is not as private as it should be, that there are many privy eyes out there, strangers who are genuinely interested in my rants and those who are gloating at how bad things turned out tonight. i'm doing this because i need to be reminded of how wry things can be if i don't mellow down.

the problem with us both is that, im impatient as anyone can be. and phillip is the exact opposite. he takes his time to calm down and deal with issues. he needs to cool off before he can talk things through. i can't. i have to talk things through immediately. that's the most glaring difference between the two of us. so damaging that it can break us.

i just don't get it. sometimes our pride gets in the way and we just make things alot worse off that it actually is. :(

alright. he's calling. blog tmr.

class tmr. sigh.

2010-04-11T17:34:00.002+08:00

went to zi char with mummy, sister and phillip!

then skipped ghost whisperers to get tickets for MONGA. rah. no more couple seats. :( oh well, it's about triads and brotherhood. its set in the 1980s; monga, taiwan. no surprises here, phillip was the one who wanted to watch! haha turned out to be pretty good. certain scenes were quite touching.

before the movie, guess what we did?

we played ARCADE!! haha

daytona, bike and bball.

i won daytona and bball!!! HAHA. as he put it, 'i own-ed him' HAHA! ;p it's quite fun actually.

2010-04-10T17:38:00.003+08:00

i am sick again!

back with flu and gum infection this time round. damnit.

i just recovered a week ago, and i'm down again! :((((

i woke up this mornin and i felt terrible. my right cheek is super swollen. panicked. texted phillip asked if he could come my place asap. thankfully he was up and he saw my text almost immed, so he got to my place in awhile. really very touched. :( i mean, cmon, i really don't think there'll be other guys out there who's gonna be willing to get himself in so much hassle/trouble. :( thank you baby.

wanted to go polyclinic get referral letter to NDC, but the clinic's closed so i went to my gp. -.- toothache and i went to a gp instead of a dentist. that's how muddled up i was. oh well, baby went with me and i got antibiotics for gum infection and painkillers in syrup form!

went home and my mummy almost fainted. -.- cos i went to a gp instead of a dentist. rah. so if it doesnt get better, i'll have to see the dentist.

i think it must be the wisdom tooth. :((

sigh. anyway, baby is napping beside me whilst im typing this!

took mc off from work. i have the most unfeeling boss ever.

2010-04-09T14:35:00.003+08:00

bad throat!!
and phillip said 'how to recover when all the day you talk non-stop?'
RAH. *angry*

MAYBE supper tonight with mae, mae's friend, priscilla and phillip! @ serangoon gardens! we'll see. cos phillip doesn't know them, so it might be alittle weird.

rahhh. and man utd is OUT of champions league! #@($&#@$ OMG HOW CAN IT BE!!! :((

no more dream finals - MAN UTD vs BARCELONA. :((

2010-04-08T14:09:00.010+08:00

tickets to TAIWAN finally booked!

8th to 17th june!

with lq, lisi and nat! for our grad trip!! can't wait!

i was working out the figures for the trip.. and the more i calculated, the more 'omg' i go. works out to be approx 1.4k for airtix, hotels, food & transport!!!

and the thing is, SHOPPING hasn't been taken into consideration!!!!
*screams*

must discuss with my mummy already!
maybe she can 'lend' me 2k instead! ;p

(i WILL NOT touch my australia funds!!!!!)

sigh.

im down with sore throat again! think might be the lack of water. need to work later. yawns.

2010-04-06T14:10:00.003+08:00

blackberry or iphone?

weekend filled with AWESOME-NESS!!

2010-04-05T01:58:00.004+08:00

friday - phillip came to pick me up from work. and we both said at the same time we wanted to go to pasir ris park to chill-out! telepathy ;p but in the end, we decided to go changi v for nasi lemak! as its VERY sinful eating that late at night, we decided to share one plate! super long queue! met this guy from work, couldn't recognize him so phillip went up to ask for his name. -.- crazy boyf. hahaha then we walked to the beach and chilled out till 130. :D and that's how we spent our meeting-one-year anniversary! ;p

saturday - 3rd APRIL! one year ago, we met at the airport.. him in his royal salut 'bellboy' uniform, me in my hideous 'red riding hood' trenchcoat uniform. ;p was supposed to be a date at holland v xiaolongbao buffet, but my mummy and sister wants to eat xlb too, so we went together. thanks baby for 'embracing' your sweetheart's family. :) he said that! haha ;p photos of buffet up when i'm free.

after buffet, drove mummy and sam back home, whilst we head out for MAN UTD vs CHELSEA. sigh. we lost 2-1. linesman is BLIND. so obvious it's OFFSIDE but he didn't flag up or rule out drogba's goal. omg. so angry!!!!!!!!!

and baby stayed over for the night.

sunday - went over his place in the afternn to study. at least we wanted to! haha in the end we just lazed around again! then dinner at pow sing with his two sisters and then dessert! i LOVE the dessert!!!!!! <3 then we went dating at ehub! watched CLASH OF THE TITANS. it's soooo similar to PERCY JACKSON! -.- don't know why but clash of the titans fell short of my expectations.

2010-04-02T00:42:00.005+08:00

it's APRIL FOOL today!!!

i didnt get any april fool jokes this year! tsk tsk i think im really getting olderrrr.

back at work for the first time since my pass expired. V PASS LEH! so troublesome!!!! :((

anyway, was prepared to stone because huichen said there's no tasting stocks + i expect alot of newcomers. BUT!! i'm happy at work! there's suyee, mae, cass, stephen, willie, bernard and the other SAs. oh well, he was working too. ewww. willie wanted to ask me smth about lisi i guess. but when i asked him again he said there's nothing to ask already. fishy.

my head is throbbing so bad. ;(

i think i need sugar!!

aiyah, should have name 'cookie' sugar instead! haha. he's VERY naughty!!!!! he keeps peeing/pooping EVERYWHERE. rahhh. he really has to be toilet trained again!!!!!

yesterday was daddy's bday and we went for swensens!

supposed to go JB but it was raining super heavy so we decided against it. went home then daddy went to gege's shop but i asked daddy to drop me off at phillip's place. rah. my sister let the cat outta the bag!!! it was meant to be a surprise! :( then baby called my home, my sister picked up and said im on my way to his place already. oh well. on the other hand, thankfully she told phillip too! cos phillip was about to leave house to send his sister off to piano!

and his youngest sister made dinner (again!) feels like im imposing. :( was alittle awkward initially, but i'm glad we broke the ice! :D i did the dishes and then phillip went out to the livin room to give me time to 'bond' with his two sisters. they're very nice people! :) ended up chatting like friends! :)) really glad it happened.

this is the first time my relationship feels so.... real. like the fact that i actually can see a future together with phillip. i hope it works out well. :)

like i always say, you can only meet the man of your dreams once in a lifetime.

fingers crossed*

workin tmr too! DOUBLE PAY!!!!!! :DDDD and baby's picking me up from work! <3

sleeepyyy.

2010-03-30T18:17:00.004+08:00

2 more uol revision to go!! OTIA and ESAP!

none of my exam scripts are ready for collection!

shit. i'm working 8 days next month!! i wanna give away my shifts can? :(

oh oh oh! my nail finally came off. in a sense, i pulled it off! :( cos it was always hanging loose so i decided to remove it. :( SO PAINFUL! and my toe looks ugly now. and the thing is, the nail has yet to grow. :( so its very short :(((((((

a really beautiful song: Angel Cry

Mariah:
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Ne-Yo:
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift

In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

Mariah & Ne-Yo:
C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry

phillip sent this song to me! and i fell in love with it immediately! first was neyo's mad, then this. we love neyo!! :D and i love mariah carey's songs too!

and i've gained weight... AGAIN!!!!!!

2010-03-29T17:11:00.006+08:00

FEW MORE DAYS TO ONE YEAR ...

SINCE I MET PHILLIP AT THE AIRPORT!!!

excited!!! :DD

and.. two of my four UOL revision classes will be over after TMR!

it's raining cats and dogs now and phillip is on his way out for tuition. poor boyf. sneezed so many times i thought his nose would be off.

cookie is sleeping soundly beside me now! he's a sweet little boy but, he pees/poops on the ground once in a while! and he listens to phillip! -.- rahhh.

updates.

FRIDAY
had marketing with nat! our marketing lecturer looks like AH WANG. LOL. nat is quite psychoed to go australia now! haha. met baby at clementi mrt station. supposed to surprise him at hall but it was raining heavily at his place, so he told me not to go over if i was thinking of surprising him. see! told you im no good at surprises! went back to his place for dinner with his sisters, then drove to my place to bathe cookie! heh. phillip looks so man bathing cookie! hahaha! ;p then we brought him down for a walk.

SATURDAY
i dare say i have one of the sweetest boyf on earth. ;p i have to be up at 630 for class! so baby decided to send me to school! :)) came and pick me up at 745 and he stayed in school to do his work whilst waitin for me! <3

SUNDAY
ah, daddy sent me to school! baby has tuition and meeting in the morning. and phillip came to pick me up after class. wanted to go for xlb but it's fully booked, only left with dinner seating. the lady called saying theres a table for the 515 sitting but it's by the entrance which i didnt quite like it. so we decided to KIV and watch WHEN IN ROME!

as i was starving (canteen wasn't open on sunday!) we had DRIVE THRU mac at king albert's park! excited!! haha i hadn't had drive thru mac since i was little. i seriously think drive thru mac taste better than simply having mac at the outlet! ;p drove in to his hall to nap. we slept for 2hours odd. rahhh. so tired!

went ehub to get tix for WHEN IN ROME! so excited okay! i've been waitin for ages for the movie! movie was at 930, and by the time we reached it was 845. and i had to get dinner for my sister as promised! went nearby to dabao minced meat noodle. shared abalone mee with baby, and ordered pork cutlet mee for my sister. came back home to give her her dinner and we 'smuggled' the mee into the cinema! haha ;x its super yummy!! im definitely NOT a noodle person, but the noodle there is GOOD!!!!!

when in rome.. typical chic film, abit short though. 91 minutes. josh duhamel is HOT! and kristen bell is SO PRETTTY!! (she looks quite plain in forgetting sarah marshall) i like! haha i can tell phillip likes the movie too! even though he doesn't want to admit. ;p

then it's home sweet home!

cookie is sooo adorable! hah i let him come up my bed and he snuggled up on my covers. that little furball. soooo lovable! :) i wanted to let him sleep there but phillip said NO! rah. else i'm gonna spoil him. oh well. wait till he's FULLY toilet-trained.

alright. marketing tmr!!

gonna do the much hated mathematics aspect for monec now!
I REALLY HATE PHILLIPS CURVE!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-25T17:13:00.003+08:00

went back school for career fair.. so tiring! :( mostly financial planning.. which i have zero interest in! :( oh well.. bought home ALOT of stuff. super heavy! plus the 7brochures i took for phillip's sister. so i carried everything in a big, big aunty plastic bag. -.- so glad when i reached home!!

and the first thing i did there after is to....

play with cookie!

that naughty boy, he tried biting my hand! rahhhh! dont want to play with him already! hmmmph! think he's hungry. not sure if daddy fed him. so i fed him alittle. but thank goodness, he's toilet-trained already! he knows he has to pee/poop on the newspaper! can't wait for phillip to come!! then we can play together! and... he can bathe cookie for me! ;p

this weekend gonna be damn tiring! :(

fri - marketing uol revision - 830-330pm
sat & sun - monec uol revision - 830-330pm (so sad lo! i'll be ALL ALONE!!! omg that sucks! :(( sigh. what to do!)
tues - marketing uol revision -forgot what time!

slight change of plans!
the other time we planned for july which phillip can't go because of his reservist, and yesterday night whilst tossing on bed, i remembered that he wants to go taiwan too! so he might be coming along with us, but we need to get one more person!!! and if he goes taiwan too, means australia trip will be axed!!!!! HOW!

please let me fall asleep early today! have to be up at 630am tmr. *lets out loud sigh* but im going over to phillip's hall to surprise him!!! :DD

2010-03-25T00:26:00.005+08:00

strawberries to mark our nine months together!!!

baby bought 2 boxes of strawberries (again!!!) and 2 strawberry tarts from yamazaki. FAVOURITE! we had the same strawberry tart.. (yes, we shared! haha when we first started dating.), so to me, it's really sweet. i dont know if the tart's really sweet, or because i'm feeling uber sweet. <3>

the ronaldo key chain on the left was given by him too! :)

phillip bought everything in pairs,

because he says 'good things come in pairs'.

my daddy bought a puppy from his friend! pomeranian!!!! EXCITED! :DD but, but, but, MY MUMMY HATES IT! and my sister is super afraid of it! :( rah. and my mummy wants him gone! :((( i want!!!!

was skype-ing with phillip and we came up with several names.... haha actually those names below are given for fun. not in actual consideration for the pup!

phillip (hahahah! just teasing baby!)

dreamy

pillow

eden

travis

pink

pinkie

blackie

and i've sorta decided to name him...........

COOKIE!!

but eh, it sounds so juvenile now that i've typed it. but even phillip thinks its cute!! ;p kkays i'll think about it for one more night!!

can't wait to play with him!! :D

a very guilty me..

2010-03-24T18:28:00.006+08:00

who thought wrong about her boyf...

rah. i thought baby couldn't care less than today's our 9th month!! and that he's so heartless not to even come see me when i'm sick! okay, i know im recovering, but i still wish he's here! ;p

and then, the next thing i know, he's coming over from boonlay just for me!

i'll be seeing him in an hour!!!!!!!!!!!! :))))

why blogger so lousy one! no PINK fonts?!?! :(

2010-03-24T01:21:00.006+08:00

HAPPY NINTH MONTH BABY!!!!

i know some of you may think, nine months only what!! but hey, its no easy feat for us both!! <3 given our bad track record. *sheepish grin* and im glad we're still going strong!!!!! hehe

(he's so mean okay! making his sick girlf wait and wait and wait! rahhh! so i'm gonna blog whilst hes taking his shower.)

super tempted to go back to harris with phillip!!!!! that will be our third batam trip! hahah! it's definitely gonna be HARRIS. we were treated like royalty! :D but the downside of harris? no beach! :( oh well, i guess phuket will make up for it!

i seriously dont get it why some people say that batam is absolutely boring with nothing for them to do! i mean, i enjoyed my previous two trips!! though not the second trip accomodation.

KTM RESORT SUCKS TO THE MAX. its run by singaporeans but IT SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS! dont even think of goin there. its downright HORRIBLE. the only thing good is the sea view it has. NOTHING ELSE. not the service, not the room, not the food, not the massage, not the reception, basically NOTHING!!!! okay, credit to be given for their zi char. though it takes FOREVER to arrive. all in all, the stay there left me traumatized. :( rahhh.
the first time was good! HARRIS RESORT. the buffet spread? awesome. dont get why some ppl complained that harris has LIMITED selection of breakfast. cmon, it has almost everything!! different cereal with milk, porridge, toast, omelette, waffle, juices, rice, noodles, so and so forth. there is a hugeeee selection! unlike KTM. which offers COLD and UNAPPETIZING breakfast selection! fried biscuit with batter?? are you kiddin?!? omelette eggs that is BLAND, pineapple rice that looks like its yesterday's leftover. sigh. the only edible food was the bread. guess it'll taste horrid too had not for the toaster.

i just realised i havent blogged about my KTM trip!!! i'll blog when i have the time! i should share my thoughts on KTM before others get cheated like me!!!!!!!!

think i only blogged about the HARRIS trip! which after 9 months, i still remember fondly. <3>

1 hour 30 minutes to .....

2010-03-23T22:26:00.004+08:00

OUR NINTH MONTH TOGETHER!!
i thought today's 22nd! sotong-ness.

daddy's bday in a week! we're going to swensens! haha
so must get well!

first time i have such a hearty appetite despite being sick. rah.

2010-03-23T16:13:00.002+08:00

ah mummy went to get my flu & cough medicine for me! thank you mummy! MUACK! :) she woke me up 7 in the morning to take antibiotics.. and i fell back asleep! and when i woke up this afternoon and nobody's home! thought mummy went to gege's shop and left me alone at home! :(( then an hour later (whilst i was complainin to baby), mummy came back from tampmall!! she went to pay bills and did grocery shoppin to cook porridge for me. loves. and baby's jealous he has no porridge! ;p

ahhh, sometimes its a blessin in disguise to fall sick, to know that they still care. :)

been pyschoed by lq, lisi and nat to go taiwan together! haha. need at least 1.5k!! I WANT TO GO!! but how about my aussie trip!? i dont print money!! rahhhh.

sammie's not back yet, has performance tonight!

time to study marketing!! :)

2010-03-23T00:52:00.003+08:00

waitin for baby to finish up his work. and chatting with his sister over courses in sim. ahhh. feelin so horrid. :(

coughin and sneezing away!!! and i dont have med for them!! bad bad bad. pls let me get better, not worst!

im craving for xiaolongbaos, for my mummy's longbean egg!

rahhhh. another hour before i can take my fever med, and 3more hours before antibiotics. :((

throat infection + fever 37.7 degrees

2010-03-22T21:50:00.006+08:00

rahhhh. i slept for two hours. rahhh.

i thought i was merely feeling feverish. so i took my temp, and it was 37.6 degrees! and baby panicked! went to the doctor. :( throat infection?!?!?!? rahhh. actually i went to the doc so that i can get medicine for me to fall asleep at night.

craving for xiaolongbaos! :DDD baby promised we'll go for it when i get well!!

i want his hugs NOWW!! :)

2010-03-22T14:16:00.003+08:00

my voice is soooo sexy now! :((
my throat hurts soooooo bad argh! :( dont even feel like talking. think im falling sick. and phillip's down with flu. :( ahhhh. baby! let's get well together!! :))

must be lovesick! :p

my body is so soreee too; im like aching everywhere. very stiff neck! :( i know im super aunty, but i place the salonpas on my neck! rahhh. :/

mummy's cooking beehoon soup for the sick girl. rahhhhhh!!

2010-03-22T01:06:00.004+08:00

updates!

sat - went tanglin mall for ribs at chilis! :D ate like a pig! ;p baby bought me a pink rose for no reason!! ;pp sweet. reached home, he tuitioned my sister, then he slept for about 2 hours and we drove out along with my mummy and sister to bedok 511 for late dinner! food galore! 2 bowls of meesua, 1 claypot chicken + rice, 1 porridge, 4 chicken wings, 2 sugar cane and 1 ice-kachang! so much for not being hungry. -.-

SUPER SINFUL! MEAT, MORE MEAT, AND STILL MEAT!

sun - as blogged previously, woke up with a smile after seeing p's text. :) mummy cooked chicken rice!! :D yummy!! p came to tutor my sister, and we chilled in my room after. :)) contented just spending time with him. then, mummy called us out for dinner! chicken rice for him!! haha yummy! and we went out for soccer after that. horlicks, tea + 10 satays! MANCHESTER UNITED WON!! YAY!! 2-1!!! HAPPY! haha baby damn sad. cos liverpool lost. torres missed a golden opportunity to equalise! he miskicked!! :DD won 10bucks! ;p

we're hoping for a barcelona vs manchester united champions league finals!! :D a replay of last year's clash.

gotta 'detox' tmr man. i'm having a bad throat now. :(

it's a date today! :)

2010-03-21T17:14:00.002+08:00

phillip asked me out on date today! hahaha! i know, so cute right? ;p

so it goes, i woke up this morning, or rather, afternoon at 12noon, and i saw p's text.

'wanna hear a good news? liverpool vs manutd 930pm today!! we're going on a date!'

awwww.

:) more than one year ago, we watched champions league finals together along with charles and desmond. it was shortly after my exams. 28 May 2010. that was the first time i met phillip outside of work. ONLY the third time i met him!! charles picked me up and went over to his area to watch at the coffeeshop. and the sillyboy thought i went simply because i want to watch soccer. HELLO!! i have cable at home and i can watch at the comfort of my home! i went because of you!!!! grrrrr. <3

:))

ps. my sister was the one who blogged on my behalf yesterday whilst i was showering! naughty girl!!!

but it is true, yesterday was well-spent. so will today. :)

ME!!!

2010-03-21T00:27:00.002+08:00

hello! I'm Phillip and Samantha's beside me. :) :)

helping vanessa to blog while she's going to bathe!

dinner at bedok with mummy, us and van! and then, went over to simei and finally back home! :)

well spent day! <3

okay, goodnight! <3

halfway through

2010-03-20T17:36:00.002+08:00

omg. im sooooo sad!!!! :(((((((

i thought it was an improvement, but but but!!!!! IS MY COMPLEXION THAT BAD? is it EVEN BAD!?? omg. or i can't smile for nuts?!?!!

baby brought me to chilis this time! his treat to reward me. haha sillyboy. :) and he got me a stalk of pink rose. <3 <3 <3 i love pink roses, more so by phillip. :)

he's been really awesome today. been there for me the entire time. thank you baby. he drove me everywhere today.

yesterday. 19 March 2010.
watched remember me at ehub. 15mins late for the movie. -.- my bad. cos he had to detour back home to get my stuff cos i told him very last min. :( sorry! then he drove me to tampines and toapayoh to sell/get a dress! :) then went toapayoh centre to eat. OMFG. there are like a million and one cockroaches and a big fat RATTTT!!!! omg. :(( never going back there to eat. i kept my legs up on baby's thigh the entire time. super scared. :(

my baby's my rock! <3

2010-03-19T14:15:00.002+08:00

still waiting for episode 15 vampire diaries!!

gonna start studying for exams next monday! shall utilise my time since i can't work! :)

we'll be going to holland v this sunday! xiaolongbao buffet!!

hungryyy.

2010-03-19T01:20:00.002+08:00

watched ANTM just now, and i'm craving for dimsum now! :D

used my desktop for the first time since we bought it from the fair! the 23" screen is TOO BIG! like what my sis said, NO PRIVACY! hahaha just not used to it YET.

i wanted to dye my hair to brown or something, but baby says no! he wants his goldilocks to remain the way she is. oh well, what's a few more months. :D

was msn-ing with clara earlier on! super excited about phuket and aussie! haha a pity we can't meet though! :( else it'll be quite fun!

wasted trip had not for my girls.

2010-03-18T20:38:00.007+08:00

as the title suggests, i made a futile trip to work today! my perm pass expired! rah. so annoying. oh well. phillip's gotta support me now! :( haha

anyway swensens today!! yummy!! we all wanted salmon mushroom baked rice. but we firgured we'll be super sick of the baked rice so we ordered 2 baked rice and 2pizzas! :) super full and yummy! no photos :( thought i'll be working so didn't bring out the camera! nat and lisi's gonna plan out the itinerary for taiwan!! :D

to address the tagboard issues, im not one to be shaken by insignificant people's comments, but if you're phillip's friends, i wish you'll stop doing childish things like these. it would be better for you to tell me straight in my face. because it's not honourable you're hiding behind the computer whilst i'm open to your snide attacks. believe me, it's not a situation worth fighting for. seriously, i'm addressing this not that it bothers me, but i really dont want phillip to be in a fix. so if you claim to be doing him well, reflect upon your actions. and use your brain to think through it. i believe you have one, albeit the size.

its quite puzzling that strangers/his friends bother to read my blog! it's okay to do so, even if you want to comment, go ahead freedom of speech. BUT, IDENTIFY YOURSELF. it's really juvenile otherwise. like some people.. ahem.. LOVE GURU.. ahem CHERYL. tsk. scolding fuck doesn't make me any less demure or less of a lady. you should have known but in case you haven't realise, because of your thickness, this is MY blog, MY blog. -.- MY. for your convenience, you can check out : www.yourdictionary.com/my see! i even post it here! no excuse if you still don't get it that this is MY blog. MY blog, so it's my outlet for venting my frustrations. whoever doesn't say awful things when pissed off? you? wow, i applaud you. you're either scared of losing your special one or being untrue to yourself.

me being sticky and full of complains? right. i see my boyf twice a week and that's being sticky? great. so married couples are what? they see each other everyday and they should just kill themselves? tsk. something wrong with my personality? i bet it's yours. right!! took me so long! i am not angry with you really! :) because i see you doing so much because you're deprived of love, care and attention! attention-seeking!! right! happy with the attention that i'm showering you in this entry now? :) hope this stops you from going into one of your frenzy in wanting to get involve in somebody else's life.

on phone with baby. brb.

lq - regardin the lateness issue you told me just now, i got it verified! its not like what that person told lisi.

all these wouldn't have happened if you aren't desperate and want to be with my bff. really.

phillip left his thoughts and his email on my tagboard. rah. he need not have done so. because if it was done by HIS friends, they would have known w/o him doing so.

alright. i've said my piece about this issue.

we're still as good as before..

2010-03-18T01:59:00.003+08:00

phillip came over for dinner. :) stayed for 3.5hours, and traveled 3.5hours just to see me. and he brought me and my sister our favourite bubble tea! :D

;) my boyf drives me nuts sometimes. others, i love him more than anything else in the world. <3

to sidetrack, my injured toenail is still not healing!!! :(( it looks like it's coming off! :( OHNO. :((((

a new blogskin!

2010-03-17T18:00:00.003+08:00

ahhh. finally changed my blogskin! seein that i'm a noob in these, it's not bad already okay! :D

anyway, went supper with kenneth yesterday. ah, he's punctual unlike my boyf!! grrrr.

oh well, talked things thru with phillip and hopefully all is good.

supposed to have dinner with lq and lisi. we'll do it tmr okay! :) thanks!! super touched. :))

and, i just got phillip's text that he's coming down from hall to meet me for dinner! that is, until my mummy told me she is cooking! so he's coming over for dinner. then we'll going out to date!

i blame our arguments on his lack of sleep and stress from school. really.

2010-03-15T02:51:00.014+08:00

i have been a really lousy girlf. :(

i really should be contented. phillip's meeting me EVERY WEEKEND unless he has something really impt/urgent. he's been doing this despite his busy schedule. but sometimes i just don't understand him enough. is it the lack of trying? or the inability to care for the dearest person in my life besides my family and bffs. guess i'm really not understanding enough. :( how many times have i hurt his feelings intentionally just because i'm mad? countless. :( and never did he give up on me. his stand has been the same ever since he met me. he wants to make me his girlf, he's done so. and now he wants to be with me till the day he's lying in the coffin. (okay, i know he'll be cremented. but you get the point.) i really have an amazing boyf whom i really don't deserve. it's always my pride! :( that i can't bring myself to apologize even though it's MY fault. :((( and the only time i'll apologize is when i see how disappointed phillip is. ;(

damn. i've better start cherishing him the way i should before i lose this man. the man of my dreams.

alright. time for updates of the weekend.

sat - met phillip at cityhall after prelims and he came to pick me up from there before we head to suntec for IT SHOW! cos he had to run errands with his mummy. oh well. I BOUGHT MY HARD DISK!!!!! like FINALLLLLYYY! and i bought my desktop!!! :DD all for about 1.2k! satisfied me! and guess what, i didnt even have to lift a finger because phillip carried everything singlehandedly. guys' ego. -.- and.. the most impt thing is, he FIXED UP MY DESKTOP FROM SCRATCH!!!!!!!!!!!! how to fault this type of boyf?!?! took him quite long to settle it all because of all the existing cables, and other computer stuff. tsk tsk. he only finished fixing at almost 2am!!! sweaty and dirty boyf. so i told him to get a shower! then guess what? i thought he's gonna enter my room and we can chat. in the end, he went back to the computer to install the programs!!!!!!!!

my very ticklish boyf.

sun- he came over. first thing he did? install microsoft office for me cos he has the 3 user disc. drove my sister and i to tampines mall for dinner. KFC!!!!! heh. finger-licking good. and i finally tried their EGG-TART!!!!!! nice!!! *thumbs up!* :D the crust is not as thick as the best egg-tart i tried in JB, but it is as good! my only complaint? that it's a tad too sweet. then drove me to work! went back with my sister for tuition. picked me up from work. :DDD

my point in saying this?

i really don't know what ive done to deserve a boyf as wonderful as him. i really don't. :( he doesn't fault me for anything, even though i can be a bitch sometimes. :( right, we have our issues and he can be soooooo heartless, tactless, insensitive and asshole-ish, but who isn't when we're mad. i should know that better than anyone.

I LOVE MY WEEKENDS.

2010-03-12T22:36:00.001+08:00

all i've done today was 2 chapters!! :( and i'm not even confident that i'll remember the points tmr :(

2010-03-11T21:39:00.004+08:00

monec was a disaster. the 6topics i didnt study for, ALL CAME OUT. the topics i studied for, only came out in 3-4 five mark qns, out of 12 qns!! :( long qns was a flop - didn't study. :((

paper started at 10am, ALOT of ppl left at 11. you see, you can only leave the hall after the first hour. i sat right infront, very distracted. tho not an excuse for not knowin how to solve the qns. :( i left at 1147. gosh. so demoralizing!!!!!

marketing on saturday!! choose 4 out of i-dont-know-how-many.
i'm gonna study 4 chpters NOWW!!

oh before i start. phillip said something REALLY LAME.

in the midst of our convo, (our daily phone call)

me: baby, i want baby's breath! :D buy for me leh!! i only receive 4bouquets from you in the past 8months!! :( and 2 was origami style! so not counted. so only 2 bouquets! omg that's a VERY bad track record!!!!! i receive flowers like once in 4 months!?!
phillip: *breathes out heavily*
me: silence. wondering what was that for. so i 'huh' him.
phillip: you say you want baby's breath! there, i just gave you. MY BREATH.
me: i burst out laughin REAL LOUD! haha. -.- at like 2am!?!?

WAHLAO! my boyf is... power.

this afternoon after monec paper, i text him.

me: zzz your curve came out! the hated curve. grrrr.

(his curve as in, philip's curve in econs)
(he replied like half hour later cos was in class)

phillip: my curves are good. just like me difficult to conquer.
me: thinking hard, is my boyf mad or what? or is he flirtin with other girls!!!!! ROARS. then i checked my sent items. then i laughed out loud on train! -.-!!!!

i removed my toe nail polish and my second toe is still bruised!!!!! :((

okay, back to MARKETING!!!!!

philip kotler - marketing is a process by which an individual or groups obtain what they need and want by creating and exchanging products and value with others.

2010-03-10T14:06:00.004+08:00

ahhh. before i start studyin for MONEC again, time to blog! :)

tmr's the paper, 4chapters completed! jiayou jiayou!!!!!

last night was good; phillip did his work, i did mine, and then we went to bed together! :D talked on the phone for an hour, and i love love love it. i'll never get sick of him. :) positive! he made me laughed so hard and i can't get to sleep! rahh. whilst he spoke incoherently during our last 5-10mins. silly boy.

phuket tickets booked, searching for hotel now! waiting for the best deal! actually we were offered an unbelievable deal, just that i need assurance that im DEFINITELY getting my queen/king sized bed!! else it's a nono!!

was looking through my friend's facebook and i am so tempted to go to HK!! the dessert, the boots, the dimsum!! considerin the fact i have a sorta hk-er boyf!!! he's gonna get me to the places i want safely!! :D afterall his mummy asked if he wants to go back hk to celebrate his grandpa's bday. so we might just make a trip there!! so excited!!

australia - sigh. tickets are sooo expensive, so not worth it. unless the price falls, i doubt i'll be able to get to australia for my grad trip! :( but, it'll be WINTERRRRRR!!!!! and i LOVEE winter.

japan - sighs even louder. tickets are relatively cheaper, but accomodation how!! other expenses how!! and most crucially, it'll be SUMMER in june/july!! i want cherry blossoms!! snow also can!

tsk, study study study first!!!!!

yawns. feel like sleeping now. hah. that sucks.

alrighty friends!! if you feel like giving up, don't. because you're not the only one studying so hard till your eyes/head/body hurts/aches. JIAYOU!! we are all in this!! :)

to my dearest phillipchor, i can't wait for saturday!! :)))

to side track alittle, we're coming 9months!! omg, it's no easy feat dating me! and this sillyboy wants to do it for the rest of his life. that said, i should get some credit too! ;p not easy dating phillip either. so opinionated, so heartless sometimes. roars!! but dont worry, i love you dip dip! :DD

im hungry. yawns. time to really get back to my notes. :(

updates. 850pm

super sleepy after dinner!! but i've finished 2 more chpters for MONEC!! only finished half of what i needed to know for tmr's paper. oohwell, stay positive!!!!!! gonna finish up this one chapter before showering! i needa stay awake. rahh. im usually a late night person, but when it comes to studying, i become very lazy.

i cant stand my blogskin! i need something that's more.. grown-up. i'll do it after prelims!

2010-03-10T01:34:00.001+08:00

im havin a very stiff neck. 4chapters of monec. how to go for prelims!! tsk.

headache. gonna chiong for another 30minutes, then im gonna call phillip and sleeeeep!!

2010-03-09T17:47:00.002+08:00

long story over what happened yesterday. really sucked though.

baby came over for me because of what happened. :)) so glad he did. he's my instant cheer-up pill! :D muacks baby. so we had a scrumptious dinner, (again!) haha and ice cream after dinner!! :D so i didnt study again.

studying monec now, taking a break from the AA/DD curves thats driving me nuts. :( so confusing! nominal, real, nominal real, nominal, real. arghhh. :(

photos up when my mind is saturated from the studying!

i just realised the format for monec paper. holy cow. :( i doubt i'll be able to attempt ALL the questions judging from the speed of my revision.

thankfully i have phillip who doesn't fail to brighten up my otherwise seemingly dull day.

2010-03-08T17:22:00.001+08:00

i have a FUCKING FUCKER AS MY FUCKING BROTHER SO HE SHOULD JUST FUCKING JUST KNOCK DOWN BY THE FUCKING CAR. YOU KNOW WHAT. I WONT CRY IF HE DIES.

2010-03-08T14:57:00.002+08:00

mummy just cooked beehoon soup! cos im still feeling abit queasy. :(

phillip's having lecture now, 30minutes till i hear from him! :)

gotta study marketing + monec later. :(( stress to the max.

finally got phillip's text, but he's on the way to physics test! tsk tsk.

gotta start marketing now!!!!!!!!!!! screams*

2010-03-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

ah, i didnt study at all for the weekend. my head is spinning real bad. i know i ought to be resting but i can't sleep early! because if i do, i'll wake up in the wee hours and not be able to get back to sleep. tsk. mummy says its because ive been sleepin really irregularly. :( what to do, the lifestyle of the new-age students! :( the immense workload, its driving me nuts really. :(

sigh. my baby's back to hall and mugging furiously now.

i just cant wait for exams to be over. :(

oh, and i skipped dinner because i simply do not have the appetite. prolly because i ate too much during steamboat for lunch. :( indigestion. and i feel like puking. :( so i turned to .... HAAGENDAZS <3 strawberry cheesecake!! :D and i feel better immediately. :)

2010-03-05T21:28:00.002+08:00

this is very bad. shit. OTIA prelims tmr, and i can't seem to find anyway to get the nformation in. 3hours, 4essay. i dont know how on earth i can manage that. im not focusin! this is bad. i hate this module! :((

argh! i wish there's NO EXAMS! :(

my head is spinning now.

2010-03-04T15:53:00.002+08:00

panic state! :( OTIA on saturday and i have yet to revise! ohdear.

meetin my baby for dinner either at his place, or. meehoonkuey at geylang! or. have dinner w my mummy and sister, and have baby come after his dinner.

I LOVE PHILLIPCHOR! :D

silly me. yesterday was a great day spent with babylove, when we got home, i kinda got in a state of madness whilst being worn out. so i sprouted nonsense which hurt my baby's feelings. grrrr. and baby called 5times but he got to my answerin machine! :( but i didnt switch off my phone at all. stupid singtel. it's crazy okay. imagine it's a really important phone call that i've been waiting for. grrr. and i didn't get any notifications of the failed attempts. none at all. thankfully baby text and asked if anything's wrong. :) called him immediately! and he dozed off when he heard my assurances that i was just silly earlier on. ;)

watched the hurt locker yesterday and guess what. we both left the cinema (after the movie) with a slight headache. :( too much action, too violent for my liking.

it's phillip's study week. and today's thursday already! drats.

2010-03-03T11:59:00.002+08:00

11 months. since the first time i know of his existence. :)

yesterday was ESAP prelims, and all the topics i was good at (not many!) came out! good news - i'll score for prelims. bad news- it's not counted into my actual results and those topics prolly would not appear for the actual paper. SCREAMS* ARGH!!! :( i wish i screwed prelims, so i can do better for the actual paper. sigh.

woman, jiayou! after exams we go overseas!! :D

baby came and picked me up! went to cathay for DEAR JOHN. i've grown to be such a softie at heart that i teared almost so easily. :( i loved the story, though i think it's plain stupidity that savannah sacrificed her love for john just to help tim pull through. there are other ways she could have gone about doing it. anyway, baby think it's a whole load of crap, the show is. still, i love it! can't help comparing with the notebook, since it's one of my favourite movies! the settings are pretty similar, the girl comes from a rich and influential family, the guy a small town kid (in the notebook)/has family issues (dear john). it's heart-wrenching to see john cry. the part i cried was when savannah stopped writing letters to john whilst he was at war, and the agony he went through when he doesn't receive her letters; when he finally did, it tore him up inside. :( :( so sad.

i am a sucker for such romance.

baby got the tickets to reward me for my prelims! :D haha wanted astons, but wasn't open cos of technical error (-____-!!) and we're watching THE HURT LOCKER today!! i thought he wanted to watch and he thought it was me who wanted it! -.- anyway, we got the tickets yesterday. so yeps. astons today! :D

woke up at 11 because my baby called! :D love him calling! :DD

OTIA this saturday. DEAD MEAT. i know NUTS about OTIA. damn.

2010-03-01T00:48:00.004+08:00

Last Day of February & Lunar New Year
i'm so glad how things have been of late. :)
despite the fact that prelims are coming, and i'm not prepared at all.

but i have every reasons to be happy because i know i have a boyf whom i can keep for life. :)

thank you baby.

i suddenly thought that in few months' time, i'll be officially working (provided i find a full-time job!), and know what? i SHUDDER at the very thought. oh no. it's gonna be an entirely new phase of my adulthood and i'm not exactly keen on it. :(

oh well, we'll cross the bridge when we've reached.

so, i was studyin my esap today and i dozed off (like, not surprisingly at all!), nobody home but my sister, baby and me. so baby walked 2 bus stops to get us dinner! he didn't want to wake me up, but he failed, (im a really light sleeper!) so i wanted to go with him but he refused! :( he locked me in the house! -.-!! but i know that's because he wants me to get more rest.

i love my silly goose. :)

muacks. he brought me taohuay with sesame, and my sister taohuay with peanut rice balls + you tiao + egg tart cos i was craving for it, and the rice balls.. cos to tuanyuan. haha. :) he brought along 2 angbaos!! his mummy told him to pass to me! :D she invited me over for dinner on friday again! :D didn't know it's hongkong's custom to give 2angbaos. good things come in pairs, you see.

wanted to go NATAS, but kinda lazy! ;p

haha, oh yes, know what he said to me?
baby, this feels like our ______. ;p

ps. he's asleep on my bed. super adorable! :)) whilst i take a break from MINORITY INFLUENCE. tsktsk. so much to memorize!! NO TIME!!

ps. his roomie called! woke baby up since he said it was kinda urgent! i think their room's been broken into! :( thankfully baby brought his laptop back, but the bag i gave him for his bday is in hall!! fingers crossed. ohno. :(((((

27 February 2010 Saturday
baby came over to tutor my sister and brought me my fav taohuay with sesame rice balls! :D oh, my sister too! but no rice balls ;p then we went over to alex's (his roomie) place for cny gathering. we were kinda late, but we still managed to gamble!! :D i kinda had luck on my side. i had ALOT of blackjacks!!!! :DDD and for one round, i had ban-luck, baby had ban-ban! AWESOME. but we didn't win/lose cos baby lost all our winnings when he became the banker. HAHA. oh well :)

then we head over to his then-tutor's place. she's a really nice lady-miss lim! hah even i could talk to her and not feel pressured! :D she's nat's dog's goodfriend's sister. LOL! we were about to leave her place and were at the gate when he suddenly asked, 'are you nat's friend?' took me awhile to realise he's talkin to me. -.- so he said he saw me at nat's party. WHAT A SMALL WORLD!! then i told him phillip was there too, but he said he didn't notice. haha and my baby was #$(#*@$(@# cos he didn't understand why he wasn't noticed. -.-

so we left miss lim's place for his jc friend's place, sha yun. her sister and her.. very friendly people! :D it was really a spread fit for kings and queens. super full after steamboat! baby cleared half the plate of prawns. haha and i cleared the abalone and mushrooms ;pp played in-between (AGAIN!) after dinner!! :DD stakes were low this time, 10cents and maximum 3dollars (by the ever generous phillip chor -.-) he contributed alot to the pot (cos he kept getting really lousy cards! hah dealt out by me!) but in the end, we won it back. about 7bucks! better than nothing. :))

this marks the end of my lunar new year. time to mug! :))

26th February 2010 - FRIDAY
baked for baby whilst waiting for him to come pick me up. cos i hurt my tiny little (okay, maybe not so tiny) toe. i baked him heart-shaped muffins though alittle burnt, and he got me strawberries in heart-shaped containers!! :DD <3

then he told me he's bringing me home for dinner! -.-!! EXCUSE ME! -.- so not prepared at all! but im glad he did. and i miss homecooked meal so much! :)) yummy! and she invited me over next week!!!!! :DDD

baby, see, i'm family already. :)

2010-02-26T17:07:00.006+08:00

omg i am so damn unlucky! :(

i tried to stand up from my bed, wanting to walk to the table to get the controller for the aircon, and guess what! i tripped on MY BED!!!!! i thought nth was wrong, so i stood up and then i realised my toe is hurting. REAL BAD. so i sat back down and i saw BLOOD!!!!!!!!! omg omg omg. i totally freaked out. all these time, baby was on the phone. so i started crying like big time. i thought of the worst, that my entire toe nail got ripped off. i couldn't bear to look really. my toe nails are red, so it made everything worse. ARGH! :((( i told phillip what happened though it was a miracle he could make out what i was saying amidst the tears. :(( so he told me what to do, and told me to hushhush, but im really freaked out big time. im so afraid the whole nail came off and it wouldn't grow back anymore! then i would have a nail-less toe!!! roars guess what baby said? " dont worry baby, without nails, you don't need hammer. " -________-!!!! tsktsktsk. trust him to say that to cheer me up. obviously it made me cry harder! ;(

it happened last night. so baby set aside his work to chat with me till i fall asleep. :( i slept really well. from 1am to 12noon! till now, i have no idea if my nail is broken or what! im super duper scared and i want my baby! :(((

i'm gonna meet him later. fingers crossed.

so i stayed home and whilst studyin for esap (which i can't get anything in!), i baked banana walnut muffins! MY FAVOURITE! :D

oh, to end things off today! something for me to look forward to!!!!
WE BOOKED OUR TICKETS TO PHUKET FOR 29June to 3July!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDD

now, that's something. :)

2010-02-22T16:16:00.006+08:00

sat - tuition at my place then left for rosemary's place. gambled abit, lost 27bucks! (me and phillip!) OMG!! then went over to gladys' place for steamboat dinner!! i like the fact that it's only us and it's much more heartwarming!! :D didn't gamble much. left earlier than i would liked because we had to head to suntec. lq and yz went in the same car! :)

sun - tuition again! (i was still sleeping when my boyf reached! ;p) he always complain that our children will starve till death! ;p anyway, went for car wash which took at least 45minutes!!! SO LONG! :(

then left for charles place for steamboat!! SUPER DUPER FULL! played in between!

phillip and my cards were pretty lousy!!! :( so we changed place! HAHAH. and we got many similar or same cards! but thankfully, we won 10bucks! haha sooooo spooky!! the pot was 34bucks but i didn't dare bet the entire pool because the previous round (before this) i had EXACTLY the same cards ( 2 and K ) and i bet 7 bucks, guess what card did i get? 2!!! means i had to pay 14bucks!! -.- so the last round, baby was egging me on, but me, being risk averse and persuaded by charles and xs, i decided to bet 20bucks, and charles bet 14bucks, so I WON!!! :D YAYYY! yesterday was the COUPLES' NIGHT! willie and sue-lynn won, so did phillip and i. HAHAHAHA. ;p yay. i know we didnt win much (10bucks) but its not good to be greedy right? ;p

this has been a fab weekend!! :D

time to hit the books! (TMR!)

2010-02-21T02:25:00.002+08:00

had a really long day!

blog tmr in details.

my baby got his FIRST summon tickets today! :(((((

2010-02-20T03:56:00.002+08:00

its 4 in the morn and i'm waitin for my boyf to get home safe and sound. :)

he came to pick me up from work and we went ehub for PERCY JACKSON! which he had earlier on booked tickets online for. really excited and had high expectations for the movie, and the movie fell short of it. which was, to say the least, disappointing. everyone i talked to had great reviews for it. but baby and i find it.. mediocre. dont get me wrong, im a HUGE fan of movies like harry potter and twilight saga, but percy jackson.. it's nowhere close! watch it, but dont have high hopes for it! probably you'll enjoy the movie more this way. credits must be given for several scenes though! (not gonna say more lest it becomes spoilers for some!)

we had nachos + lemon tea!! :D

no supper cos we're both feeling tired. rather get home and chill out :)

alrighty, im gonna log off and wait for my baby.

hope all is well for my friends out there! :)

have an awesome weekend ahead!!! :D

2010-02-19T14:15:00.002+08:00

roars. so tired!! :(

gonna watch percy jackson after work! :D excited!! :DD

im starving, no lunch so i had pineapple tarts for lunch. -.- roars. so annoying! :( i love pineapple tarts but i dont like it for lunch!

this weekend is gonna be busy busy! sat at glad's place for cny visiting, sun over at either phillip's/charles'

in the meantime, i'll try to upload long overdue photos!!

2010-02-18T01:12:00.004+08:00

yesterday was a really awful day. i cried and cried like my tears were worthless. maybe they are. but i think i should start treating myself better.

it was really so bad. it hurts so bad i just wished i could disappear. for good.

this shouldn't be the case for two people in love.

i havent been on my best behaviour, not when it comes to his brothers. it's really a pretty sensitive issue and i just can't help myself to keep my cool whenever they are around. i cant blame them if they don't like me because i haven't been giving them reasons to. i don't know. i've really tried, but it is so not me. :(

it's just so hard dating him and having to accept his brothers as mine. it's really tough.

for whatever i've typed in my previous entry, i just can't let him go. i really can't find reasons to let the man of my dreams slip past me, over arguments so absurd and minute. it holds till date that i see a future with him. and i'm not gonna let that crash and burn.

it's tough. i wished i could just call someone up and cry my heart out. i really do. i wished there's someone out there who, without fail, is there for me. someone besides my boyf. and that someone is my bff. it's kinda hard to admit the fact there's no such someone for me. at least not anymore. :( it really sucks being me, that i can't lower my pride or shed the facade that i've been unknowingly put on.

but i'll live.

all is good once again. hopefully not short-lived.

i realised the way to fulfill anything is to say (write) it out and have people know it, so that they can be the source of motivation to achieve my goals. so here it is,

i'm gonna try so hard to be really understanding and supportive for my baby. even though it's quite an uphill task. for him, i'm just gonna do it. roars. there it is, i've said it. and i mean it. :)

so after 3 MAJOR arguments in 2 days :(((( we are finally good! THANK GOODNESS! it was so bad that i thought there wasn't any rainbow after the rain.

we went to get my camera!!!! :DDD ecstatic!! :D my baby got it for me! HAHA. ;p but i'm gonna pay him back by saving the money for his aussie funds!! sweet right? ;p and guess what!! my camera is PINK! :D alright, maybe no surprises here. HAHA. oh well, it's PINK and it's SONY!! awesome!! :D

SUPER BROKE NOW! because ive gotta save up for the aussie trip! (just in case it's materialising!) haha

love love love <3

our 8th month in 6 days' time! :)

so after getting the camera, we went to watch VALENTINE'S DAY at TM GV! :D taylor swift is kinda unbearable in the movie. -.- she's one of the driving factor that i wanna watch the show! and jacob black! ;p julia roberts is sooo pretty!! movie ended 2358, guess what! all the doors to tampone are CLOSED!! so we had to walk down the slopes of the carpark to get the car. stupid. -.- baby drove me back, stayed awhile and left for the airport to pick his mummy and sister! YAY! we're trading our alcohol! lisi got belvedere for me the other time, and baby got his baby to get grey goose! we're gonna exchange our bottles!!!! :D why? cos he loves belvedere and me, grey goose! :D he's got himself a good deal! grey goose is 10bucks cheaper!! ;p

ps. glad - thanks girl! :) i'll see you on sat!!!! :DDDD
:) - thanks for sticking up for me (if you are) :) you are?

2010-02-16T23:33:00.003+08:00

my boyf told me ' i wouldn't let anyone hurt my family. if i were to choose between you or my family, without a doubt, i would choose them. '

the thing is, i didnt even ask him to choose btwn us. so i don't deserve that from him.

i really think i should let things go.

yes, he fits in nicely what i want in a guy, but i dont think im happy being with him anymore.

love guru - you know who you are, i might not know who you are but there are only SO many people who would speak up on those issues. so, if you dont have the guts to leave your GOD DAMN NAME, don't leave a comment. i'm sorry (maybe not) your life is so god damn pathetic that you have to stalk my blog and speak up for your brother. (if he's my boyf, then fine. if he's that loser, ask him to get guts before speaking to me.) i don't wanna get nasty but you are messing with the wrong girl.

sigh. this lunar new year sucks to the max.

shocking? or maybe not. but the thing is, i don't think i wanna be with him anymore.

2010-02-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

shocking. disappointing. scary.

i think i just found out who love guru is.

2010-02-14T21:21:00.003+08:00

CNY DAY ONE!

visiting, angbaos and lots of food! the weather was excruciating hot though :( whilst my baby is freezing in hk :(

a guy out there is meant to be the love of your life,
your best friend, your soul mate,
the one you can tell your dreams to.

he'll brush the hair out of your eyes,
send you flowers when you least expect it.
he'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it.
he'll call to say goodnight or just cause he's missing you.

he'll look into your eyes and tell you,
"you're the most beautiful girl in the world."

and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it.

-nicholas sparks

today's also VALENTINES DAY! <3
even though my valentine is away in hk, i still very much feel the love, his love. :)
he's gonna be back tmr around midnight!!
can't wait!!!! :DD

2010-02-13T16:17:00.002+08:00

sooo tired! :( woke up at 10 cos my boyf's text came in and woke me up! :D super happy to hear from him!! :DD he's gonna be back late tonight cos he's bringin his younger sis around to shop! tsk tsk tsk poor girlf. busy carrying all the groceries :( super heavy! went with my sister, while my parents and brother are down at the shop.

bought ALOT of food! HAHA! :D
my weight-losing regime is interrupted. :(
oh well, ;p

my boyf bought me foodstuff from hk!! wife's biscuit, goose/pigeon (!!@#)
BUT I ONLY WANT HIM BACKKKK!!

gonna get coffeebean later to shou ye!

gotta go already. ciaos.

HAPPY CNY EVE!!!

2010-02-13T01:14:00.003+08:00

life's pretty good lately, the only thing is that my boyf's away in hk.

oh well, day one is over! 3more days!! :)

anyway, i've kinda come round the idea. things will remain the same between us until something happens, and when that happens, we'll come up with a plan. that's the ideal picture of course.

anyway, im thinking of changing my blogskin (its been ages!) and my blog add and privacy. it's just so sad that some people (who's of no relation to me) is interested in my entries. poor fella, prolly doesn't have much of a life besides cyber-stalking people's blog. worse still, leave two comments so that he/she could be heard. then again, it's not my character to make changes because of someone insignificant.

im gonna be down with a bad throat! all the heaty western food :(

cny eve tmr!

resolution :
no swearing, even at ppl who are downright irksome/pathetic. (ie, love guru)

skype-ing with my boyf and he's naggin at my lack of concentration! so i'd better get going already!

grad trip - australia!! ANYONE? :)

2010-02-11T02:48:00.001+08:00

wtf am i doing it all for?

2010-02-10T01:51:00.003+08:00

i need someone who puts me as his top priority.. someone who thinks the world of me. someone who doesn't go clubbing.. and it seems like the someone is not quite you.

i don't know.

we've had thousand and one arguments and it's always about your 'brothers'. i mean, cmon, it's me against your brothers. (note:PLURAL) it doesn't seem to occur to you how freaking tough it is on me, trying to make my effort count. it's not easy but i never did complain, until now. because it doesn't seem like you understand the shit i'm going through.

we're gonna celebrate v day tmr. but the irony is that i don't feel the love, so why pay tribute to the day of love.

maybe im just tired and sprouting nonsense now.

but im just kinda affected by all of it.

you're always the image of the perfect boyf, while i seem like the obnoxious girlf that whenever problems occur, ppl naturally jump to the guns and assume its my fault. i wont deny i can be (and am) obnoxious at times when im mad, but it's not always my fault.

it's just so tiring. i'm dating you, not your brothers.

things aren't all pretty btwn my bff and i. it takes hell lot for me to call someone 'bff', but someone is coming in btwn us and i can't pretend that i like him. i really can't bring myself to do it. and the only way out is to distance myself from you. i did it once, it sucks but if i really have to do it, i'll just make it happen, even at the expense of our friendship.

argh im just sucha screwed up case now. BIG TIME.

i skipped two days of classes straight. GREAT.

2010-01-28T22:37:00.002+08:00

sooo tired. wanted to do econs but the qns is soooooo damn difficult. :(((

zzz.

i feel like a pig now! :( put on weight and i really cant seem to lose it, or refrain from eating so much. this is bad. baby says i'm perfectly fine, and beautiful (in his eyes ;p) but, i think i look fatter when i wear my dresses. oh dear. :( even my mummy says so. :( OH NO. no self control ever since i get together with phillipchor. bad influence lah! then he's asking me out for dimsum supper tmr!! :(( now you know what i mean. evil boyf.

with the upcoming cny, i can forget about losing weight. tsk tsk.

oh yes and i cant load my vampire diaries!! :(( tsk, okay, i'll search for dining places for his bday! SEEEEE!! its FOOD again!

arghhh. im goin berserk! :(

2010-01-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

i'm deadbeat. argh. third day of school + work, and i'm dying soon. :((

marketing test tmr!! and then i'll be free for the weekend. like finalllyyy.

gotta really rack my brains for phillip's 22nd.

i want to sleep. :( but i have not studied anything relevant for the test.. yet. :((

say hello to panda! :(

2010-01-27T03:04:00.003+08:00

:DD happy girl. albeit the fact i'm gonna fail my thurs marketing test FOR SURE.

baby came over to surprise me! haha. guess what's my present for our seven months? HAHA the long awaited oven!!! OMG. haha. :))) i know it's pretty eye-rolling for some, but for me, im ecstatic over this gift!! ;D i've been wanting an oven for donkey years after mine gave up on me! im so gonna start baking. haha. mummy is skeptical about my baking skills. oh well.

damn, the boyf is full of surprises nowadays. <3

i can't help but fall for him, over and over again. :)

and i'm getting a new cpu. i want my photos back :(

baby's bday in 2 weeks time. so excited. i needa recommendations for dinner!! any suitable places? :D
budget: pretty flexible :D

so much to do, so little time!

waiting for him to get back home, and we might be going to school tgt tmr! :D

2010-01-26T15:50:00.002+08:00

i've been feeling good these few days. :) actually, good is an understatement. even though i have FIVE chapters to study for the upcoming marketing test on thursday. this is NO GOOD. :(( i have work and school everyday! :(( sigh. think i'll disappear from work for march. i deserve a good break. :) i think im too hard on myself sometimes.

life's good and let's all hope for the best that it stays this way.
(LG should engage my services! haha)

to my friends out there who's still reading my blog, hope life's good to you too! if it isn't, remember, obstacles are tests of one's determination and strength. so hang in there alright, after all, CNY is coming!!! :DD and.. V DAY! <3 even though i have to spend our first v day together apart in two countries. :( well, i'll be good and wait for his return! :DD

alright, i needa get on with my marketing. i don't want to fail too miserably. HAH. phillipchor is gonna murder me. he flipped when i told him just yesterday i have a test even though i knew the test date way back in december. ;x

2010-01-25T01:10:00.003+08:00

today's our seven months together!!

(told him im pretty surprised we made it this far, which is true to an extent.)

had a really unforgettable evening. <3 went MA-MAISON and my boyf drove. ;p
photos with him! <3

it's been a really long while since we did anything so romantic ;p haha
but it's nice to know that nothing has changed between us, only, our love has grown much stronger for each other. that phillipchor is indeed the same guy i fell head over heels for 11months ago. i know we may have our differences and downs, but i'm not giving you up baby. my promise to you. even when there are times i lose my head, i'll never forget this promise to you. <3

feeling insanely sweet. <3

you know the kinda feeling i used to get whenever i think about him, talk about him, hear his voice or see him? the kinda of happiness and glow that seemed to be radiating from me? that's the kinda feeling that i've deeply missed. and you know what, i'm feeling so again. <3 <3 <3

been racking my brains for somewhere nice to bring him to on his bday! and our 8th month! <3

this has been an awesome weekend!

fri - worked, baby came and picked me up from work. though he's 15minutes late because he has to drop off desmond at simei since he wanted to surprise her. rolls eyes* get a cab and make your way down instead of hitchin a ride from my boyf. CHEAPSKATE. okay, back to my date, went to kovan for our teochew porridge! <3 we had that on our third date! HAHA. unconventional right my boyf. :) yet i stupidly fell in love with this sillyboy. <3 and i want to get an oven so i can bake for him and my girls!! :D excited.

sat - came over and tutor my sister whilst i get myself busy in the kitchen with my mummy's help! made potato salad, fried rice, chicken and fruit jelly for him. though the fruit jelly's a bit too watery and the chicken, tasteless! HAHA. well, credits for the hard work okay! ;p

sun- TODAY! our splendor seventh month! :D (refer to post above!)

if only i get to spend every weekend with my baby. :)

ps. my desktop died on me! arghhh! and i have no backups for my photos! :(( PLEASE DONT DO THIS TO ME! :((((( ALL my photos aren't developed! :(((( i'll be devastated big time if it nothing can be done to salvage it :((( PLEASE :(((

2010-01-11T00:52:00.002+08:00

these few days have been awesome. :)

i love my baby boy. <3

tmr will be his first day of his second sem!

alrighty, he's calling anytime! :D

2010-01-02T12:45:00.003+08:00

yeah man, just when i thought all was good.

the boyf just had to lie.

on 31st dec 2009, he promised to go clubbing with his friends. i know nth of. 1st jan 2010, he promised to come back to my place. then on the bus, he text that he'll be goin supper/drinking with his friends. i am not okay with it. because he promised to come back. if he didnt say so, it wouldn't hve mattered if hes goin supper with his guys. do you not fking get it? the fact you said you'll come back gave me hopes. yes it sucked okay.

then of course, i didnt know he went clubbing. i naively thought it was merely supper/drinks. so halfway through texting, CHARLES the fking piece of LARD, removed his phone's battery. that withstanding, its phillip's fault to allow it to happen. so yeps.

i dont know what i've done to deserve a boyf like him. i think i deserve to be treated better.

2010, a new year. i will not hold on anymore. the next time he screws up, we're over.

2010-01-01T03:54:00.003+08:00

im mad tired now. :) but i'm happy. and that's the most important thing. :)

last day of 2009. went out with phillip. was very critical/mean/sarcastic to him for the entire time till evening where i finally relented. thank goodness he kept his cool and remained patient with me no matter how absurd i was. <3 we ate alot! :( wanted to watch sherlock holmes but the seats was mad first 3 rows. -.- so we ended up watching alvin and the chipmunks/chipettes! super cute movie! i love it! :)

wanted to go esplanade to watch the fireworks, but judging from the human traffic, i decided against it! went his place to get the car! his mummy and daddy was in the living room, so i sat down and chat with them whilst phillip went upstairs to check his directions. haha. drove out to kallang for fireworks!! :D though we didn't have an unobstructed view, i was happy and contented having him by my side. :) it feels surreal. i'm glad everything's back to its place.

drove down to geylang, then saw someone waving from the car! guess who? MY DADDY! haha. so we followed behind his car, to my brother's shop and i went to the toilet. zzz!! there was a HUGE cockroach with me!! can't concentrate on reliving myself. SERIOUSLY. cockroaches are the bane of my life. :( wanted to eat taohuay, but it was closed. joined my brother and his friends for supper. ZI CHAR. like wtf right. zichar at 1 am!! :(( HOW TO LOSE WEIGHT! -.-

then it's home sweet home for us. <3

i have my prince charming back my side again.

2009-12-31T04:17:00.004+08:00

i had six great months with him, six months of honeymoon.
now i've gotta snap back to reality. life isn't as picturesque as it seems to be.

we argued tonight again. like totally not surprised. that's because i caught my boyf staring at a girl LONGER than necessary. fine, you want to look at pretty girls, go ahead. but don't be transfixed and get caught by me. like FUCK YOU LAH. so fucking pissed off. and know what's worse? the girl isn't hot/pretty/sexy AT ALL. -.- she was wearing this black bodycon dress to eat prata. not sour grapes, but she's really not hot can. if she's hot, i can understand! but she's NOT AT ALL. it's a fucking insult to me.

FUCKING INSULTED.

one more time. you just have to fucking screw up one more time.

i seriously think i deserve better.

i asked myself if my feelings for him have changed. and i realised i can't say with conviction that i still feel the same as i did for him six months ago.

let's see what's gonna happen.

anyway, im determined to shed off the 2kg i've gained since i got together with him.
no more suppers, no more snacking.

2009-12-30T01:04:00.001+08:00

i dont know. i used to be certain, i'm not anymore.

some fucker bitched about me to my boyf behind my back, and he had the decency to pretend to be my friend infront of me. you should just FUCK OFF AND BURN IN HELL OKAY. fuck. i am so fucking pissed. what's worse is that my boyf refused to tell me who. the consequence: we'll never be the same anymore. you want to protect your friend so be it. i do not need you to fend for me, i can do so myself. by not lettin me know wtf that fucker is, you're not being fair to me. i will not be able to face your friends and pretend i'm cool with them. not when i do not know who exactly bitched about me. it is not fair to let me be out in the open whilst that fucker is protected by you. it's so not fucking fair.

i am so fucking bitter. i don't know if i should hold on. i don't know if you're still worth doing so for.

i have given in so much, so much that i've never tried doing so in my entire life, till i met you. you have never stood from my perspective. you have never spared a thought for my feelings. you have made me cry more than i thought i would be capable of. i didn't know anyone could cry so much. till i met you.

you were supposed to be my dream come true.

but somewhere we went wrong.

we were once so strong, but not anymore.

i once told myself that if you start questioning yrself when you should give in, you already have the answer. i know it, yet i'm still holding on. what for, i have no idea.

it's just so painful being with you.

i don't know if i'm still capable of holding on for you. i don't know hw much longer i'll be able to do so.

i've tried my best, i'm seriously exhausted.

i love my boyf alot. but he's ever so full of his principles, so fucking egoistic. he wants the best of both worlds - his friends and me. he doesn't give in to me. it's always about him. it's never about me. and it doesn't seem to pain him whenever i cry. and that hurts quite a bit.

i don't know. i don't know who to turn to. maybe i just don't wish to turn to anyone. i just need to let it out. i'm feeling so god damn bitter. so fucking bitter.

maybe it's time to let go.

2009-12-20T01:12:00.002+08:00

just came back from batam! :)

KTM RESORT SUCKS TO THE MAX OKAY. DON'T EVEN GO. -.-
the only two positive comments i have for KTM are their fantastic sea view and their foooood!
BUT, the breakfast sucks. -.- seriously, you call THAT breakfast?!
tsk tsk tsk.

I AM NEVER GOING BACK TO KTM.

omg. im so glad im back home! even though i wish phillip's beside me now! ;p

sigh. im super shag from the trip. roars.

2009-12-16T01:04:00.003+08:00

i have been sooooo busy that im going nuts. :(

i woke up late SIX times for NOV & DEC. :( this says alot because for year 1 and 2, i have NEVER woke up late. ohdear.
checked my punchcard today, realised i worked 11 days out of 16. NO WONDER SO TIRED LAH. zzz. somemore my classes are all morning- meanin i have to be up by 630! :( and i sleep 2-3am the previous day. SIGH.

my 21st bday celebration was AWESOME. all thanks to my dearest babyboy. <3

he took off for 6 days with his guys to vietnam, all without me! :(
vietnam without v! :( how can! BUT!! he's coming back TOMORROW!! <3 i'm gonna surprise him at the airport!! i managed to change shift but i didnt tell him! ;p

yay. he's finally coming back! i miss him so bad. and he has two other upcoming trips! :(((((( all for longer periods sigh.

BATAM ON THURSDAY!!! <3
i'm gonna kidnap him and have him all by myself.

he's yet to call! he's 2hours late!! :((
roars. must be out partying to celebrate slutty's bday.